Poems for Samhuinn

Samhuinn, for St. Columba

When Death comes
May I greet him with a smile
As an old friend
I know his work, his commission,
I know how he guards zealously the sacred boundaries Separating the living and the dead
I know these boundaries
I have crossed over them
For love I have died
Entering darkness with no guide
To search for another's heart
To join in the Celebration
For which the universe was created--
The stars by night are the same
The same sun and moon do shine
But the sea is different
It has no shores
It winds are dreams and visions
Its waves are bliss and ecstasy
Its depths contain Eternity
And I have sailed upon it
My craft rests by the dock
Its sails ready to hoist, to set, to trim The helm awaits my hand
Soul companions are my shipmates
The fire of stars burning in their eyes
The songs of the constellations
Circle within their smiles
Joy dances in their hearts
But it is not my time to depart
My hands say,
"These palms still contain seeds of light To be scattered upon the earth."
My lips and tongue say,
"We taste the air--
It stirs, it whispers,
It hovers and drifts in restless gusts.
The air is pregnant:
Light and darkness
The turning of the year
The barriers separating all worlds grow faint The gateways now luminous--
The eye clairvoyant
The ear telepathic
Touch clairsentient
The Earth Herself is here
Waiting for Her children,
To hear the Song--
To feel the Fire
To taste the Light
To touch the Joy
To embrace the Love
At the center of our hearts
At the center of the circle
At the center of the universe."
Listen! Can you hear it?
The sound of galaxies whirling, spinning, and colliding Sailing on celestial winds?
The wind in the leaves of the trees
The soft rustling
The tender caress
As sweet as any Lover
Her fingers running through your hair?
Who is like my Beloved?
At her touch,
The sun and moon dissolve
Into a brighter light
Day and night join as one
The life animating plant, rock, animal, and tree Human and Divine being
Returns to its source
To the seed at the center of the heart.
In a dark place
Silence blossoms
Revealing the distances separating and uniting all things-- I hear the Song of the Universe.
In a solitude pregnant with love
Distances are overcome
And the stars draw near and greet me
As an old friend.
Elegy for Kathy

It has grown quiet now--
My tears are no longer falling
But my hands and arms continue to search for you I have told them that the night is deep
I have told them that the stars were placed in the sky To remind us of the Mysteries still hidden within our hearts But their longing is beyond the power of words to reach That is why my tears
Betray even poetry
And continue falling.
Male and female join
As night and day
Yet even a star so nobly poised
Amid the void, the void which holds its mysterious heart Even a star celebrates its own light
In the face of the planets
Revolving around it
Yet the child's cry reminds us both
Of the womb from which we were born
And the destiny we have yet to attain
But the child's cry can be comforted
The child held close, the child loved
But who will comfort my heart
As I search the night
As tears continue searching my cheeks
Still looking for your smile
Still longing to hear your heartbeat?
No seashell recalls the songs of the sea Or the waves rippling and falling upon the shore As well as my ears remember your laughter As well as my skin
Remembers your love.
If I could have but one more hour
To walk beside you
To share your company as you shove off
From the shores of the life we have spent together But you would not grant me this request
Even if you could
You know I would not return
But would continue on beside you.
I tell my eyes
It is no use
They will never see you again
But they are more persuasive than I
They say they see you everywhere I look
In a thousand settings
In a thousand memories
Which still beg to comfort me, to hold me, to love me As I had hoped to love you every day of my life.
I have grown quiet now
My tears are no longer falling
My blood flows through my body
My lungs continue to breathe
My arms and hands are calm
My eyes and ears are at peace
We no longer argue
Where and when we will find you
Or how we will live without you
You see, I have taken over their cause-- In my innermost heart
I speak on their behalf:
One heart in quiet consultation with another heart Time, space, life, and death
They can no longer keep us apart
And I say what I would have said anyway
And what you know is true also:
I love you with all my heart
And I will love you forever and again I say I love you so
I miss you so much
But I know you my dear
You would even find it funny
That I use a towel now
Instead of a handkerchief
To dry away my tears.
by Bill Mistele by Bill Mistele